kittiesdontsmoke

far off in the distance, is that you? a cloud deludes my vision for a fraction of a second i see you or was it a shadow? despite my desprate desire i still dont have even the slightest clue "i feel no pain" you said to me on that day and yet i know better.... sadly i look upon the faces of the unknowing... such innocence... a gazed look crosses my face... how is it possible that a person can be surrounded... and yet so isolated... in the sight of the society the human race is forever in the sight of time the human race is a second... so i ask you... how can a person, in the middle of this second, be so keen on time itself?

crimson blood my soals on fire such emotions spill out through my pen if these strong words spill out what does that say about my heart? an itching pain and blame turned to shame what a rhyme i can conduct on my pedestal i stand so sad innocence no longer there will love prevail? a past so painful can he wash it all away? oh little birdy take my message to the sky let it fly and soar to its revival i let him down somehow i fear such foolishness i treasure lock and seal the door no longer open is my heart, so cold cold you say i am cold only to you you who condemn me to the pit of hell this place you call 'home' no home of

a lot of what i say is the same but what can i say when these emotions are so fluent day in, day out my mind repeats itself like a never ending circle around and around i go back and forth throught time the past and the present life in my mind is distorted i dont hear words i just know them to see an event or to feel it to just know is to show such intelligence in this world of everlasting sorrow Heaven and Hell, a manifestation of the mind to many life is dead surround yourself with false hopes and dreams dreams cover the sky as i sit here A.D.D takes over with class no sense of time in my mind and i cant concintrate a

as each blade shatters the glass my head pounds, my heart aches an itch so unnerving A.D.D. kicks in to rewrite the world would be to undertake execution open the minds of the materialistic to see is to believe, but what ever happened to faith? wax crayola making pictures of the world dark colors cloud my eyes burning pain, into the wounds you pour lemon juice my arm's on fire so intense its unbearable on the wall of the vulnerable I sit again A.D.D. kicks in my focus changes to a beat pounding through tears run down and stop with a thought of unrest a will not bent by the world or emotions its another Cinderella story but

a heart so cold lost in the wilderness a feeling so wretched- unclean surrounded by innocence never felt so alone in a room so full beats all around taking in the knowledge, learning to write with perhaps some structure being watched from afar by one not so close lies being told left and right and yet such innocent fun laughter all around with stories flying back and forth an unwanted kiss, accompanied with a loathsome glare never again will the comfort be there in longing you stand but know I dont love you never will I dont feel that way an eternal gift not given to one so lost

They Say They say it's always darkest before dawn... They say I must be strong just to carry on... They say I'll love another in time... They say I'll never befriend a mime... But what they don't know is how much it hurts... To see my love in despair... To see my love not realize I'm there... They don't know I would wait my whole life through... But you know, my love, I'll be waiting just for you... One day you stood, amazing and bright ... And I knew that day you'd be mine to love... I knew then I'd love you in the deepest way... I knew then I'd love and care... For I know, my love, that you do love me too...

Forever "Forever is an awfully long time" A saying I heard once and gave some thought Thinking of the future can be dangerous Of course no one thinks of what's in store What's up ahead? What's in front? I'm drowsy and ready to sleep But thoughts come back at me "Forever is an awfully long time" Hello road in front As life drops its weights on me I think there must be more And of course what is in store is unknown But forever sure is an awfully long time To think of being with one forever is such and illusion Thy life will never end as clock ticks on And thy mind goes on ahead I'd rather be together Thinking of forever as